I'm so easy going but something in me wants to inflic massive pain and suffering on rapists, murderers, and bullies, basically all sadists who don't keep it to themselves, I fantasize about vivisecting sadists
@cum I also feel like punishment is self indulgent, it doesn't do anything, it might serve as a deterrent but it also might not, at all. But it feels so good to lord power over a "villain", but the truth is these "villains" are mentally ill, and so, by torturing them I'd basically be torturing sick people, for fun, which is bad.
@cum And consensual sadism is acceptable, I only mean sadists with victims
But does this make me a sadist? Even if I hate the violence? Even if it repulses and upsets me? I still think about it, and those thoughts are upsetting while simultaneously being appealing, so what is wrong with me? I think I'm a normal human who just doesn't lie like others do, or who isn't ignorant like others are, there are bad things inside every one of us.