@mario losing weight is hard, why can't it be easy 
it is somewhat easy in theory 
minimize incoming cals
maximize outcoming cals
i have no idea how metabolism works in practice tho, doesn’t help that it’s individualistic and changes with time 
@mario I hate that I can't figure it out. The only time I was a healthy weight was when J was heavily using. I had no appetite and lots of energy. Now, I have no energy at all if I don't eat, and if I cut back on eating, and eat what I "should", I feel literally sick, like I have the flu, no energy, get depressed, eating has literally become an addiction and I'm not even "that" fat, but I wish I was thin, I can either be fat and feel bad, or eat less and feel worse.
@Kagekokoro @mario I tried to build muscle recently, and I was eating 200g protein a day, my kidneys started hurting so I stopped. But I was seeing some results. I was working out hard too. But it was hard, I couldn't keep it up, my kidneys started hurting and I had no time for anything else. Now I just want to lose some fat and maintain but I'm addicted to sugars and grains (which turn to sugars), any time I try to cut them out and do just the protein and veg I lose my fucking mind and have mood swings, I self regulate with sugars, carbs, honey, maple syrup, whatever I can get my hands on that's more or less natural. I don't eat candy. I don't drink soda. I make sweet lemonades or have protein pancakes with butter and syrup, I eat actual food I just don't eat it in the amounts or frequency I should because I am unstable.
