I really want to be a good boyfriend to somebody one day, anybody really (within my parameters). I want to even be their husband one day. I'm not a rich man so unless they were well off our wedding would be small, but meaningful. It would be the most special day of our lives imo, and I would want it to be so special for her, I believe it's "her day" as they say, and I would sell a kidney if it meant I could make it a day she would be touched by, a day that not only fulfilled but exceeded her expectations. I've been mocked by other guys for confiding this stuff in them, but this is who I am. If this makes me a "fag" than I'm a fag.