I think I don't like sluts because I don't want my partner "being nice" to anyone but me. I'm like Daffy Duck on a mound of gold screaming "MINE, MINE, IT'S MINE!" . And that's VALID. I am done feeling ashamed of being narcissistic and selfish! DONE! I AM SELFISH, HEAR ME ROAR! I LOVE BEING LOVED BY MY PARTNER WHILE THEY LOVE NO ONE ELSE THE WAY THEY LOVE ME! I AM A JEALOUS GOD! AND MY GODDESS IS NOT TO BE SHARED! SHE BREAKS DICKS BY STOMPING ON THEM! BUT NOT MINE!
I know I'm such a conundrum because I am very sex positive and support freedom, yet I'm only interested in romantic relationships which involve submission and dedication. I could fuck a friend but they're just a friend, even if they're a slut as long as they're just a friend I could fuck them without getting mad, but I will never care about them as more than a friend, and what is a friend but a gift you give yourself. But my partner, someone I love, as more than a friend, they are flesh of my flesh, they are not allowed to "slut it up", just like I'm not allowed to, because we share each others bodies now, and we need the others permission to do things with our (theirs and mine, we belong to eachother) bodies. This is enmeshment and codependence and it is not "healthy" but that's just like your opinion man.
My super power is self respect, and not settling or compromising my values. My super weakness is low self esteem and shame.
I didn't used to have shame but then I kept letting bad people who deserve to be [redacted] into my trust sphere and they kept being mean to me.