Now that I have posted so much stuff that I've had to keep secret, about attractions, I finally feel kind of better. I hope antis have learned an important lesson as well, that anybody can be a map, you probably have friends who share hobbies with you who are maps, because you would never know. Imagine how badly a friend who likes you would feel if they were a map and knew the kind of things you said about people like them. If you're really their friend, and you know them to be a good person, it shouldn't matter what they think is beautiful or ugly, everyone is allowed to have their own taste, it seems to me that you're the one with the problem if you can't accept that. Antis don't stand between me and success, and they don't have to stand between you and success either. Remember lots of successful people have been maps, popular people who never harmed anyone. Remember these people and stay strong, tell yourself "if they can do it, I can do it.", it's important to use positive affirmations. Remember, for your safety it's unfortunately best to never "come out", because bigots may rally together and target you. But don't worry, you can still lead a fulfilling and successful life even if you never find any of your own kind to commiserate with. Think of antis like good dogs, who can't understand complex concepts, they will be your best friends but don't expect them to understand the philosophies that come out of your mouth. You can get along just fine with an anti, as long as you remember they are like dogs, speak simply to them, no big concepts, nothing that challenges their beliefs, they can't handle it. Once you know this things go more smoothly. And this applies to many things not just human sexuality, it extends to god, conspiracies, morals, anything abstract and thought-experiment-y can only serve to upset your dimwitted companions, remember, dogs, good dogs. Don't hate them for it, but don't trust them, don't talk to them about shit, nothing good can come of it. Keep your deep shit in a book or something and then publish it one day if you must, but don't try to soak up the richness of a "dogs" brain through conversation, it is a vacuum, it will suck the intelligence out of you.
Remember, an anti never knows what you're thinking, antis can't read minds, even though they pretend they can. Antis have NO idea what is going on inside you, none, so don't worry, their head games are just that, games to be easily defeated. Once you realize it's yourself you're defeating it all becomes clear. The inside doesn't have to match the outside, it's ok if it doesn't, no one will know, they will just judge the outside, sad, but it benefits those who have to hide.