If I had my shit together I'd get a job where I could help people and be a safe person for them. I have severe agoraphobia that I developed after several incidents of what I would call kidnapping but what was legally considered consensual. Because I am not legally a victim I have no recourse. Anyway it fucks my shit up bad. I hope one day I can heal and be a protector of people who suffer abuse at the hands of "authority" figures, even if it's just to say in back rooms when no one else is listening "You're not crazy, I believe you."