I understand now fedifrens may perceive me as a broken being, and they may have been sticking around to "save me", and I think that might work. I've been in a more positive mindset lately, I understand now that being a map doesn't have to be a blackpill, it's ok, you don't have to give in to despair <3 I am sorry for hanging on to bad feelings fedi frens, I believe it doesn't just hurt me, it hurts all of us when one of us hurts, and so I regret putting that strain on fedi societies shoulders. And again I would like to thank all the fedi frens who have stuck by me, through all my posting, journaling, etc, if you had good intentions well you should feel pretty happy because I'm doing better, your little duckling is learning to fly