To the christians who raised me

It makes me so mad when religutards try to kick me out of "their" (THEY OWN IT????) religion for being "disgusting" or "wrong". And then they tell me they'll KILL me for being one of them! So I try to leave, but the scars of religiosity are a part of me and I need fellows who share and understand these scars to exist like all humans need community to exist. For a long time, years, I came to hate religion, it made me unhinged, but it wasn't religion that I hated, it was the scumbags telling me that MY interpretation of religion was unacceptable, telling me that MY sin was UNACCEPTABLE while THEIR sins are INCONSEQUENTIAL, NONE OF THEM FEEL SHAME WHEN THEY EAT NON KOSHER FOOD, THEY ARE LIARS AND ACTIVE TERRORISTS. FUCK THEM. I'm trying to accept the religious part of me, and I can only do that when I accept that god does not discriminate when it comes to sin, if all sin is equal than a liar and a murderer can both be forgiven equally when they repent, just like you when you repent for eating shellfish.