I just want to have people I feel safe with irl but I really don't and I'm so scared it's only surface level safety I don't feel safe enough to cuddle with anyone or hug them deeply or anything...I'm scared they're going to reject me...fuck this shit I wish I could go on a night ride but I'm too tired...I just wish I had energy...I wish i wasn't so depleted, so sad, on the verge of crying but not even having the energy to do so anymore. I came to the fediverse to talk about porn and human rights, and even here I got abused and threatened by evil people. I just want to find my tribe. Where do I fit in...where is my place in the linkage?