Friend is dying from terminal illness and decided abruptly to begin ending their own life. Legally nothing can be done and I wouldn't want it to, they're of sound mind I suppose and I can't judge unless I was in their shoes but god damn it feels fucking bullshit. I don't even have any real friends left. They're not even really a friend they're an older rolemodel type. Not ready to die level old but like late middle age. I'm so fucking enraged right now. It's a cold rage. Life is bleak like winter.