I worry my white mother who in reality had interracial sex with an oreo to birth me, is terrified of negros. Not a single black friend. My black father who likes heavy metal, abusive and absent. So here I am, struggling, trying to honor my black ancestors along with my white, but I'm starting to realize the white side of my family only pays lip service to anti racism, they never mingle with the blacks in a truly peaceful way, they're always trying to either suck up to the blacks or they're being awkward around the blacks or they just straight up exclude the blacks or avoid the blacks. It hurts my heart. I want black pussy.