My final battle
My battle with hell
My battle with the demons
I am preparing my body in life
So I that in death, in the afterlife, I will defeat demons with my spiritual strength which is gained through willfull endeavors in the physical realm
If you devote yourself to some pure spiritual practice it will give you spiritual strength
When the end inevitably comes for all things you will have the tools you need to make the business angel man in a suit regret ever tampering with "lower" beings
This is my religion/vent
Oh also suicide doesn't result in punishment but you will be robbing yourself of magnitudes of power in the battle to come in the afterlife.
The experiences here are your training ground, your massive spiritual energy will be able to crush any demons who expect easy prey if you are prepared and dedicated./ps