Omg I thought I was the only one who got bad associations with things I liked because of abusers until today/vent p.s. I thought I was just a little pussy who wasn't resilient but now I see I'm a normal person and I can get better and feel good again. I cry when I hear old edm songs I used to like because I got SAd by people who shared that interest with me and others who didn't do that but abused me in other ways. I'm so scared to go in public ever since them and I used to have a great time going to festivals and I was calm and confident. I get flashbacks to the festival I was at where I was tripping on acid and couldn't stop a rape (someone else was getting raped). I was too high to do anything to help. And it fucked me up./doublevent