I've been thinking lately that "creating stability" is a masculine principle whereas merely "becoming stable" is a feminine one.
Really casts waging in a different light.
I've been unhappy lately because I'm not doing what I want (obviously) and what I want is to go the gym every day (lol).
I had a taste of the good life towards the end of my time in the Army where I was waking up, playing vidya, eating lunch with the squad, lifting, then being dismissed for the day.
I want such freedom again.
I will have that freedom again.
It's easy to be caught in the well-worn groove of daily life, but this is just being checked out, this is relinquishing control over life. Nothing will ever change without an effort to exert control over the world around me.
Perhaps a willingness to destroy my life in an attempt at freedom is requisite to being free, it certainly feels that way.
Really casts waging in a different light.
I've been unhappy lately because I'm not doing what I want (obviously) and what I want is to go the gym every day (lol).
I had a taste of the good life towards the end of my time in the Army where I was waking up, playing vidya, eating lunch with the squad, lifting, then being dismissed for the day.
I want such freedom again.
I will have that freedom again.
It's easy to be caught in the well-worn groove of daily life, but this is just being checked out, this is relinquishing control over life. Nothing will ever change without an effort to exert control over the world around me.
Perhaps a willingness to destroy my life in an attempt at freedom is requisite to being free, it certainly feels that way.
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Army....
Freedom....
You want what??? 
My last 6 months in the army I had no duties, no formations, no nothing. I woke up, checked in for the day, and by 9am often, or 1pm at the latest, I was let go for the day. It was amazing. I was lifting with my friends (the warband), doing whatever, and getting paid for it.