God why did this have to happen at like 2:00 a.m. in the morning oh God

Every now and then, which means once every, I would say 7 to 8 months I have an existential crisis about existence and the fragility of life and its meaning and how I am extremely scared of death, god I'm freaking out I'm not even 25 and I keep having the equivalent of the midlife crisis god god god I'm going to try and play a game to distract myself and then go to sleep as fast as I can but oh my God why is it so scary why are we like this I just want a answer and no one on this rock has one. God, I wish I had a answer please....