Honestly one of the reasons I think I feel incomplete is because I've never had a partner.

I've never actually tried to get one. I've been so focused on studying an schooling that I've never wanted to have one because I knew I would never have enough time to dedicate to the relationship.

I think the other thing that's frustrating me too is that I'm an enjoyer of both genders. But I desperately want a family. So I refuse to date a guy or even get remotely attached to one.

Just a lot of frustration / mixed emotions.

I'll figure it out eventually, I just enjoy screaming into the void and occasionally it screams back to me.