Long story short I broke this girl's heart 10 years ago, we haven't talked for like 7 or 8 years. But I still think about her all the time, it's my biggest regret.
Part of me wants to shoot her a message just to ask how she's doing. I am 100% not expecting us to get back together but I do still care about her, you know?
Part of me though thinks that, even though I care about her the best thing might be to just let it be.
I just have this feeling that's eating me alive and I don't know what to do about it. It'll never go away, but maybe if I knew if she was like married and had a good life it'd quell things just a bit. Then I get stuck in analysis paralysis though and I think, I'm the one that fucked her over and there's a chance that hearing from me again isn't what she wants, so shouldn't I be the one to bear all the unpleasant feelings anyway?