i found a good way to describe how i've been feeling lately.

it's like when you go so far out of bounds in a video game that the floating point math starts to fall apart and models start jiggling around. it's like my body isn't confined to my body anymore, if that makes sense (it probably doesn't).

or, it's like if i make one wrong move i'll end up partially clipping through a wall/floor/object and the physics will start going haywire like a gmod sort of thing.