heres new drawing of koko


also some words i wanted to say from my inkbunny post

been rough times for me, my mind has been spiraling downhill the last.. bunch of weeks lol
got bad enough this last week that it resulted in me pretty much wandering aimlessly in the middle of the city, with me wanting to jump in front of traffic numerous times, cant say im proud of that but at least nothing happened so far

i kinda wanted to say, im irresponsible as fuck, because of these excuses ive not been able to do shit to take care of myself, my own place, my responsibilities etc, you should see the state of my bedroom..
this also includes a few commisions i've had for.. quite some time now and i really haven't done much, i feel really bad about it but it feels like my brain is actively preventing me from working on them, like i sit down ready to draw and my brain is just like nah lets do something else instead, its really infuriating my adhd i want to try and take meds next month (my therapist is only available after this month for some reason)

idk if the people that have commissioned me will read this but to them i say im really sorry, im gonna continue trying to finish those pieces as hard as i can, heck part of me wants to finish them AND reimburse what they paid me but i have no money for that anymore, pretty much everything in my life has been falling down lol so i dont really have much to offer other than promises, i dont ask for forgiveness but i hope theres some understanding

im probably gonna close down commissions for a long time, i want to try and revive my pixiv fanbox or start a patreon or something for hopefully a bit of income, i have a few ideas in mind but i want to offer work in progress drawings and spicy sketches i dont post anywhere else, maybe even a discord server i dunno

sorry for big text wall, i will work on getting better but i still apologize to those whom trust i have betrayed