so it really wasn't my fault (or at least entirely) that i sperged out in the phase connect discord all those years ago when i got doped up on the stronger stuff

@ninja8tyu it's never been the guns. It is all about the mind.

@beardalaxy @ninja8tyu ngl I did stupid shit on Adderall I can barely remember
Like buy too much crap from Japan including broken PCs I need to give away to people on telegram

@sendpaws @ninja8tyu I've always been much more comfortable living without medication for my mental shit even if aspects of it suck because at least I feel like myself.

@beardalaxy @sendpaws i was fine going into deeper meds because i wanted to be happy and enjoy my life, even if it wasn't myself who would be enjoying it

turns out that the meds didn't swap/change souls, it never numbed ONLY anger and sadness, and it also killed my libido

honestly it's about what i get for expecting an easy solution; the biggest mistake a smart person can make is thinking he can always avoid doing things the hard way by finding an obscure smart way

@ninja8tyu @sendpaws I was a kid, so I fully blame everyone else. As soon as I had full autonomy I quit that shit and it took years for me to feel like myself again.