@PNS I'm sorry but that is some weak ass shit, more so in the country where there are many more guns than people.
Thinking of suicide?
Why not thinking of killing the people who did this to you?
If you're at your rope's end, just fucking kill these people, or at least refuse to pay, make it hard for them, instead of swallowing a bullet.
This kind of weakness pisses me off.
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