Feels kind of weird to be kind of bragging about this kind of stuff
I think racism is generally pretty gay and I'm not even particularly far right, just extremely anti-authority, yet I still feel like even the farthest right people you usually see on fedi aren't as extreme as people tend to think. Fedis racists tend to be people who just think saying racist shit is funny; it's rare to see a real racist on fedi who genuinely advocates genocide and believes other races need to be exterminated. I've seen these kinds of people frequently, and I'm dulled to them, but aside from the most extreme people on this entire network - a group I could likely count on one hand - no one even comes close to that level of hate. Yet people often act like these lukewarm embers are blazing furnaces, that there are countless hundreds or thousands of extremists hiding among fedi. It feels strange to me at times.
It is strange that I find myself more in tune with some of the more left leaning people here at times. Left and right, both feel like petty distractions. Authority vs individualism has always been my core foundation; I desire individual freedom above all else, I reject authority. Yet even among people who claim the same things I feel like I do not fit in. Fedi is full of self proclaimed egoists and anarchists and libertarians I can't feel any connection with. On 8chan I always felt out of place - I was never far right, my only extreme is individual liberty, even on the community that seemed to put individual liberty above all else I felt out of place.
Maybe this is the final truth of individualism. Maybe the individual has nowhere they fit. My ego is incompatible with all things in this world. Even egoism, even absolutely individualism, even absolute liberty, don't fit it. My body doesn't fit it. My mind doesn't fit it. I question if even my soul fits. I do not belong in anything, not even myself, not even "me".
I think racism is generally pretty gay and I'm not even particularly far right, just extremely anti-authority, yet I still feel like even the farthest right people you usually see on fedi aren't as extreme as people tend to think. Fedis racists tend to be people who just think saying racist shit is funny; it's rare to see a real racist on fedi who genuinely advocates genocide and believes other races need to be exterminated. I've seen these kinds of people frequently, and I'm dulled to them, but aside from the most extreme people on this entire network - a group I could likely count on one hand - no one even comes close to that level of hate. Yet people often act like these lukewarm embers are blazing furnaces, that there are countless hundreds or thousands of extremists hiding among fedi. It feels strange to me at times.
It is strange that I find myself more in tune with some of the more left leaning people here at times. Left and right, both feel like petty distractions. Authority vs individualism has always been my core foundation; I desire individual freedom above all else, I reject authority. Yet even among people who claim the same things I feel like I do not fit in. Fedi is full of self proclaimed egoists and anarchists and libertarians I can't feel any connection with. On 8chan I always felt out of place - I was never far right, my only extreme is individual liberty, even on the community that seemed to put individual liberty above all else I felt out of place.
Maybe this is the final truth of individualism. Maybe the individual has nowhere they fit. My ego is incompatible with all things in this world. Even egoism, even absolutely individualism, even absolute liberty, don't fit it. My body doesn't fit it. My mind doesn't fit it. I question if even my soul fits. I do not belong in anything, not even myself, not even "me".
