@doorroo Yes they make me feel grounded, and comforted, I didn't know I could feel this way again.

@Jazzy_Butts i've got a folder of videos and photographs that i play on repeat when i need to calm down

@doorroo I want to do that too now, a happy folder

@Jazzy_Butts yes, i have it on fast mode bc really fast images flashing appeals to me for some reason, i guess it's the fact that my thoughts work that way, flashes and scenes

@doorroo I saw this movie on vhs as a kid, when I was starting to realize I didn't really have a dad. I kind of wished Adam Sandler was my dad, and anyway this scene stuck with me.
https://youtu.be/9z5qpyxRR-A

@Jazzy_Butts this segways into a question i'm urged to ask. when you try to imagine or visualise, say a happy place, do you actually see it or do you just feel yourself thinking of it? i'm closer to the former but the majority of people say something like the latter

@doorroo Hah I see that shit, I only found out other people don't very recently. My sister said she doesn't see things in her head, and when I heard that I suddenly understood that's how most people must be, because she's very normal, socially functional.

@Jazzy_Butts i already assumed you can see it too, it shocked me when i found out that isn't the default. read some studies showing the commonness of aphantasia (lack of inner eyes) in certain universities to be as high as 20 to 40%, seems unreal. inability to place an object in front of you or in your sight, in your mind, seems like that'd cripple your creativity or something

@doorroo I have a crush on you

@Jazzy_Butts is this a direct response to what i just said about visual inner monologues or is this a cumulative response to my excessive babbling today

@doorroo cumulative

@Jazzy_Butts hmm im not sure whether it is serious or figurative but thanks you i appreciate your appreciation of my retardation

@doorroo No it's real, I like your consciousness

@doorroo I would snuggle the thoughtform that is you and make happy appreciative sounds

@Jazzy_Butts this is one of the cutest things i've read all month, i would reciprocate with a minds' eye cuddle