I have been burned on interacting with normies in school so many times, that I am afraid to talk to any humans in general.
That is why I am alone. And even though love is the thing I desire the most, I am terrified of pushing conversation to a point, where people will consider talking to me ever again.
@LukeAlmighty I was feeling this way for a while. After everything that happened with covid I didn't feel like I could trust anymore and I became agitated whenever I had to talk to people for more than a few words. For me, things started getting better after I started going regularly to church. Contrary to what I was led to believe, everyone there is extremely nice and non-judgmental. It is still surprising how much easier it feels to be around others compared to how it used to even just a few months ago. It may be worth considering
@Binkle
Also, there's no need to keep this private.
I need to heal. And that needs me to vent to as many healthy people as possible.
@LukeAlmighty oh okay for sure - though for my own sake I'd prefer to keep my messages unlisted just so I don't spam up the sleepy public timeline (I already post a lot lol)
@Binkle
It's hard to define community for someone as sheltered as I am...
I go to work.... sometimes...
And this week, I am on a czech comic con. That seems to be helping a lot.
@LukeAlmighty I think the comic con and other things like it will help you. The important thing is to start slow and keep doing just a little more each time. Consistency is more important than grand gestures or the romanticized idea of suddenly becoming better at it
