I have been burned on interacting with normies in school so many times, that I am afraid to talk to any humans in general.
That is why I am alone. And even though love is the thing I desire the most, I am terrified of pushing conversation to a point, where people will consider talking to me ever again.
@LukeAlmighty I was feeling this way for a while. After everything that happened with covid I didn't feel like I could trust anymore and I became agitated whenever I had to talk to people for more than a few words. For me, things started getting better after I started going regularly to church. Contrary to what I was led to believe, everyone there is extremely nice and non-judgmental. It is still surprising how much easier it feels to be around others compared to how it used to even just a few months ago. It may be worth considering
@Binkle
That's the real problem.
I do know, that people are mostly nice. Some of them even kind. But I was force to spend 13 years locked in with assholes of such a caliber, that they would get killed/arrested outside of school.
And my subconscious is still struggling with that.
@LukeAlmighty I think the comic con and other things like it will help you. The important thing is to start slow and keep doing just a little more each time. Consistency is more important than grand gestures or the romanticized idea of suddenly becoming better at it
