so it really wasn't my fault (or at least entirely) that i sperged out in the phase connect discord all those years ago when i got doped up on the stronger stuff
@ninja8tyu it's never been the guns. It is all about the mind.
@beardalaxy @ninja8tyu ngl I did stupid shit on Adderall I can barely remember
Like buy too much crap from Japan including broken PCs I need to give away to people on telegram
@sendpaws @ninja8tyu I've always been much more comfortable living without medication for my mental shit even if aspects of it suck because at least I feel like myself.
@beardalaxy @sendpaws i was fine going into deeper meds because i wanted to be happy and enjoy my life, even if it wasn't myself who would be enjoying it
turns out that the meds didn't swap/change souls, it never numbed ONLY anger and sadness, and it also killed my libido
honestly it's about what i get for expecting an easy solution; the biggest mistake a smart person can make is thinking he can always avoid doing things the hard way by finding an obscure smart way
turns out that the meds didn't swap/change souls, it never numbed ONLY anger and sadness, and it also killed my libido
honestly it's about what i get for expecting an easy solution; the biggest mistake a smart person can make is thinking he can always avoid doing things the hard way by finding an obscure smart way
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@ninja8tyu @sendpaws I was a kid, so I fully blame everyone else. As soon as I had full autonomy I quit that shit and it took years for me to feel like myself again.
@beardalaxy @sendpaws i still believe i was smarter than at least 65% of the population when i was in elementary school, so i should've known better when i was in high school
@ninja8tyu @sendpaws well, just because you were smart doesn't mean you were wise. but you did get there and that's the big thing that matters.
@beardalaxy @sendpaws eh, i really can't cut myself any slack even if i wasn't wise
at the end of the day, the mistakes were made, and even if it wasn't my fault, people will find someone to blame, and others in the same position will play victim so they can sidestep having to improve themselves
i have to avoid the heartless and the pitiful
at the end of the day, the mistakes were made, and even if it wasn't my fault, people will find someone to blame, and others in the same position will play victim so they can sidestep having to improve themselves
i have to avoid the heartless and the pitiful
