Plz tell me about ur drama
Drama such as:
Stories of people cheating on each other
Stories of baddies who got got in their own karma
Stories of evil landlords
Stories of all manner of chicanery
Etc.
Etc.
@Jazzy_Butts i have a ton of controversial stories, most in school or college, not sure if that constitutes drama you're interested in
@Jazzy_Butts my bad got busy. plenty i can think of but a recent one was getting suspended from college
i was going to a private liberal arts school to mess around with the humanities. polisci, history, anthro was what i've been studying for years already & teachers often called me a polemicist at different schools. butt heads a lot in the Political Science courses. however, it was in a 'history of europe' course that i got nailed.
skipping minor arguments in there for typing's sake we inevitably got to the history of jewry in europe. the polish professor had made a point asserting they were a common scapegoat for europeans' insecurity - unwillingness to take personal responsibility.
i contested, arguing this overlooks a great deal of the story. the professor and i went back and forth over examples of incidents as far back as 60 AD to as recent as Weimar, a redheaded kid chimed in by saying he was highly offended that the professor was even allowing this conversation to occur. he claimed there was no basis in fact or history to support it, that it was a delusion. this dragged on to a good half hour until the professor said class was dismissed. the professor, myself, the redhead, and the redhead's friend stayed behind. we continued discussing, the redhead then said he was offended because he himself is Jewish and the teacher is likewise. he remarked that if i'm so confident in what i'm saying, prove it.
so, later in the day, i offhandedly but wrote up a 3,000 word essay with sources and all, emailed it to the aforementioned. turned into another back & forth with the professor, the redhead on the otherhand decided he was apalled and sent it to the Dean of the college, saying he felt intimidated. threatening to sue if i weren't expelled. the board of inclusion did some investigating to determine the severity of the issue. a campus restraining order was placed to keep me out of the same building as him due to his saying he was paranoid i'd attack him for his background (weird leap). about a week after the mes, security came to my room to question me, he wrote a letter saying he was having trouble sleeping knowing i'm a student at the same university.
this blew up into an impromtu 'class court' hearing over a Zoom call; board of inclusion as the Jury and several faculty as Judge. redhead as complaintant, his best friend as witness, and me as defendant. went on for 6 whole hours -in 2 parts. i streamed the entire thing in my server to my friends bc it was ridiculously funny. i had 3 charges against me / 1 - ahistorical or dishonest student 2 - disruptive 3 - source of harassment. i argued the first 2 charges away, getting former & current professors to comment on my conduct, the consensus was that i was 'intelligent with unfortunate interests'. the professor i had argued with verbatim commented 'gifted but misguided'.
the third charge was immovable because according to the student handbook, harassment lies upon how someone else feels, notwithstanding intention or actual harassing occuring. so, i was slapped with a suspension for four months under the condition that i take a correctional class on how to be more tolerant with my work and only use sources approved by the college.
long winded but that's the short version lol
i was going to a private liberal arts school to mess around with the humanities. polisci, history, anthro was what i've been studying for years already & teachers often called me a polemicist at different schools. butt heads a lot in the Political Science courses. however, it was in a 'history of europe' course that i got nailed.
skipping minor arguments in there for typing's sake we inevitably got to the history of jewry in europe. the polish professor had made a point asserting they were a common scapegoat for europeans' insecurity - unwillingness to take personal responsibility.
i contested, arguing this overlooks a great deal of the story. the professor and i went back and forth over examples of incidents as far back as 60 AD to as recent as Weimar, a redheaded kid chimed in by saying he was highly offended that the professor was even allowing this conversation to occur. he claimed there was no basis in fact or history to support it, that it was a delusion. this dragged on to a good half hour until the professor said class was dismissed. the professor, myself, the redhead, and the redhead's friend stayed behind. we continued discussing, the redhead then said he was offended because he himself is Jewish and the teacher is likewise. he remarked that if i'm so confident in what i'm saying, prove it.
so, later in the day, i offhandedly but wrote up a 3,000 word essay with sources and all, emailed it to the aforementioned. turned into another back & forth with the professor, the redhead on the otherhand decided he was apalled and sent it to the Dean of the college, saying he felt intimidated. threatening to sue if i weren't expelled. the board of inclusion did some investigating to determine the severity of the issue. a campus restraining order was placed to keep me out of the same building as him due to his saying he was paranoid i'd attack him for his background (weird leap). about a week after the mes, security came to my room to question me, he wrote a letter saying he was having trouble sleeping knowing i'm a student at the same university.
this blew up into an impromtu 'class court' hearing over a Zoom call; board of inclusion as the Jury and several faculty as Judge. redhead as complaintant, his best friend as witness, and me as defendant. went on for 6 whole hours -in 2 parts. i streamed the entire thing in my server to my friends bc it was ridiculously funny. i had 3 charges against me / 1 - ahistorical or dishonest student 2 - disruptive 3 - source of harassment. i argued the first 2 charges away, getting former & current professors to comment on my conduct, the consensus was that i was 'intelligent with unfortunate interests'. the professor i had argued with verbatim commented 'gifted but misguided'.
the third charge was immovable because according to the student handbook, harassment lies upon how someone else feels, notwithstanding intention or actual harassing occuring. so, i was slapped with a suspension for four months under the condition that i take a correctional class on how to be more tolerant with my work and only use sources approved by the college.
long winded but that's the short version lol
@doorroo Oy vey, someone questioned the tribe, get the zoom call set up!! It's this sort of reaction that causes people to dislike them regardless of their identity.
@Jazzy_Butts that's why i streamed it. wanted to put on display that it is a real phenomena. technically wasn't allowed to since two-party consent state.
@doorroo @Jazzy_Butts this anti-bullying move to defining all forms of harassment as per the victim's point of view is a really stupid oversight. It was very noticeable in discussions during corporate training meetings over no sexual harassment/discrimination tolerance policies; in every case now it comes down to cancel culture. Literally anybody can spew some bullshit claiming they feel insulted, offended, threatened, etc - and that's it, they're automatically the winner.
in specific examples, used in these discussions with HR and in practice, you could have two people on break, outside the building, smoking and talking or joking with each other or even talking about a completely benign subject. If ONE person happens to walk up to them and hears a single word they don't like, they can claim harassment. If you so much as glance at somebody in passing and they want to, they can claim harassment and you instantly end up suspended or fired.
beefing up the anti-harassment rules/laws to protect people who were otherwise forced to suffer actual harassment and discrimination was a good idea, but it was very poorly executed in practice, and put into law and corporate policies that only serves to invent criminals where there aren't any.
....and this tendency to scream "that's antisemitic!" at literally fucking everything that mentions a jew or anything related to jews, and even when a conversation has nothing at all to do with jews, is the same fucking issue. The modern jew is not a victim, they aren't victimized. They are acting like victims for clout and benefits, and to conceal corruption (setting aside cases where it goes from "banker jew" memes into trying to prove this or that person in whatever position you don't like is a jew and whipping up stupid conspiracies where there aren't any).
For having suffered a genocide and being a victimized minority, there seem to be an awful lot of "jews" literally everywhere.
Thing is, most of those are just regular fucking people living regular fucking lives. But some of them do take advantage of the pity they've convinced society we all owe them, and they act like they have some sort of legal immunity to any form of criticism or rational discussion or the fucking truth if it doesn't benefit them directly.
It's literally the same thing black american kids do in upper/middle class schools when they bring up racism and slavery and as they are owed groveling by the white kids sitting next to them. Difference is, the jews have been successful with this ploy on a massive scale almost worldwide, and to the point it's literally illegal to research the holocaust.
this sort of corruption fucking infuriates me. And the absurdity of people who get offended over banker-jew memes (when it's a fact that those all-powerful evil bankers actually are jews) is funnier than th ememes themselves. I can't count the number of times I've said things that were not even memes or insults, that some butthurt person who wasn't even part of the conversation declared was some antisemitic slur.
it's fucking bullshit. Retarded, with a capital R. And the more stories like this I hear of them being spoiled, shitty little princesses and actively ruining someone's live over some bullshit need to abuse the politically correct pity factor, the more I come to despise anyone who takes jewish ancestry seriously. Especially in the modern era, where EVERY ethnicity is getting heavily mixed with everything else. Fucking ethnicity doesn't fucking matter. It never did, really. It was never a good reason to discriminate against people, and it has never been a good excuse to play the "racial victim" card either.
Rant aside, disclaimer would like to inform y'all that I am not only white and male and not a jew, I have friends who ARE black, who ARE jews, and a few who are actually both. I'm not racist. I'm not antisemitic. I don't judge fuckers for skin color or who the hell their great-grand-mum was, I judge them for being the fuckers they are.
🖕a'ight i think i'm spent on ranting for now.
in specific examples, used in these discussions with HR and in practice, you could have two people on break, outside the building, smoking and talking or joking with each other or even talking about a completely benign subject. If ONE person happens to walk up to them and hears a single word they don't like, they can claim harassment. If you so much as glance at somebody in passing and they want to, they can claim harassment and you instantly end up suspended or fired.
beefing up the anti-harassment rules/laws to protect people who were otherwise forced to suffer actual harassment and discrimination was a good idea, but it was very poorly executed in practice, and put into law and corporate policies that only serves to invent criminals where there aren't any.
....and this tendency to scream "that's antisemitic!" at literally fucking everything that mentions a jew or anything related to jews, and even when a conversation has nothing at all to do with jews, is the same fucking issue. The modern jew is not a victim, they aren't victimized. They are acting like victims for clout and benefits, and to conceal corruption (setting aside cases where it goes from "banker jew" memes into trying to prove this or that person in whatever position you don't like is a jew and whipping up stupid conspiracies where there aren't any).
For having suffered a genocide and being a victimized minority, there seem to be an awful lot of "jews" literally everywhere.
Thing is, most of those are just regular fucking people living regular fucking lives. But some of them do take advantage of the pity they've convinced society we all owe them, and they act like they have some sort of legal immunity to any form of criticism or rational discussion or the fucking truth if it doesn't benefit them directly.
It's literally the same thing black american kids do in upper/middle class schools when they bring up racism and slavery and as they are owed groveling by the white kids sitting next to them. Difference is, the jews have been successful with this ploy on a massive scale almost worldwide, and to the point it's literally illegal to research the holocaust.
this sort of corruption fucking infuriates me. And the absurdity of people who get offended over banker-jew memes (when it's a fact that those all-powerful evil bankers actually are jews) is funnier than th ememes themselves. I can't count the number of times I've said things that were not even memes or insults, that some butthurt person who wasn't even part of the conversation declared was some antisemitic slur.
it's fucking bullshit. Retarded, with a capital R. And the more stories like this I hear of them being spoiled, shitty little princesses and actively ruining someone's live over some bullshit need to abuse the politically correct pity factor, the more I come to despise anyone who takes jewish ancestry seriously. Especially in the modern era, where EVERY ethnicity is getting heavily mixed with everything else. Fucking ethnicity doesn't fucking matter. It never did, really. It was never a good reason to discriminate against people, and it has never been a good excuse to play the "racial victim" card either.
Rant aside, disclaimer would like to inform y'all that I am not only white and male and not a jew, I have friends who ARE black, who ARE jews, and a few who are actually both. I'm not racist. I'm not antisemitic. I don't judge fuckers for skin color or who the hell their great-grand-mum was, I judge them for being the fuckers they are.
🖕a'ight i think i'm spent on ranting for now.
@bitterblossom @Jazzy_Butts @doorroo
> If you so much as glance at somebody in passing and they want to, they can claim harassment and you instantly end up suspended or fired.
tbh if there is a 'point' to this instance its (at least originally / predominantly) being a bunch of trannies/femboys that could out-edgelord everyone else to the point where ppl are submitting bogus reports to our host cuz their sensibilities were offended / spamming us with gore cuz we posted a selfie and we can make fun of it being so low-res or whatever
(& then at least for me - try and channel that back into genuine friendship and positivity and construction because at the end of the day i really want to be a nice, pleasant person and have conversations w/ ppl)
but its been really fascinating to see when ppl are trying to put out some jaded persona to just completely implode in the same way they complain about other ppl doing lol
> If you so much as glance at somebody in passing and they want to, they can claim harassment and you instantly end up suspended or fired.
tbh if there is a 'point' to this instance its (at least originally / predominantly) being a bunch of trannies/femboys that could out-edgelord everyone else to the point where ppl are submitting bogus reports to our host cuz their sensibilities were offended / spamming us with gore cuz we posted a selfie and we can make fun of it being so low-res or whatever
(& then at least for me - try and channel that back into genuine friendship and positivity and construction because at the end of the day i really want to be a nice, pleasant person and have conversations w/ ppl)
but its been really fascinating to see when ppl are trying to put out some jaded persona to just completely implode in the same way they complain about other ppl doing lol
@rats @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo some people are truly hateful and wont let others in their bubble at any cost
@rats @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo well, without compromising on one's own beliefs. i'm not gonna back down on what i believe to be fact, just because someone doesn't want to deal with me
@Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats thing is, everyone touts their knowledge as fact, and that's where we reach an impasse
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @doorroo @rats not everyone
it's a minority, but some people do acknowledge that they are not in fact omniscient and perfect and all that.
there's been a few times i've been corrected on different matters here on fedi and been forced to change what i think (for instance, there was a point i thought jews were only bound by religious heritage; didn't realize it was actually a genetic thing).
that said, i'm a stubborn fuck and a heavy thinker even if don't always have words for shit, so i'm usually very adamant about my stances when i do have something to say. i also tend to look at the larger picture and refuse to let myself get stuck in some tiny little box, so when i see people who clearly don't understand even half of what i'm taking for granted, no amount of convincing is going to budge my thinking until they can bring some point to my attention that exists outside my current perspective on the subject (very rarely does anyone manage to actually do so).
it's a minority, but some people do acknowledge that they are not in fact omniscient and perfect and all that.
there's been a few times i've been corrected on different matters here on fedi and been forced to change what i think (for instance, there was a point i thought jews were only bound by religious heritage; didn't realize it was actually a genetic thing).
that said, i'm a stubborn fuck and a heavy thinker even if don't always have words for shit, so i'm usually very adamant about my stances when i do have something to say. i also tend to look at the larger picture and refuse to let myself get stuck in some tiny little box, so when i see people who clearly don't understand even half of what i'm taking for granted, no amount of convincing is going to budge my thinking until they can bring some point to my attention that exists outside my current perspective on the subject (very rarely does anyone manage to actually do so).
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@bitterblossom @opal @doorroo @rats Once someone said indica was the stimulant weed and sativa was the sedative weed, I politely suggested I have heard otherwise, I went from their favorite person to their most hated enemy
@Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats it's weird because i have a bad baseline anxiety, such that indica actually helps me focus, whereas sativa just gives me a headache
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo i have very bad baseline anxiety so both of them just put me in the fetal position while i can only think about how my friends pity me because they think im pathetic
@rats @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo i'm curious how you would fare with a cbd-only strain. it's antipsychotic whereas thc has a tendency to evoke paranoia and such
@rats @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo me either but i oughta have some cbd flower on hand. i used tinctures as well
@rats @opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom every strain makes me feel off, i can't explain why. from a bong, a pen, a flower, i get a deep worry that someone is trying to get into my head and i get like, hyper-aware of my body. i can't find any explanation or similar posts about it for some reason. when i use either type of weed moving my eyes or blinking hurts, i can feel my hair moving, my tongue gets really CRT staticy, my vision gets blurry. scary
@AbNormal @opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats i don't have any allergies and don't take any meds. i reacted to weed fine when i was in highschool, made me mellow. but, my german friend did say my schizotypal disorder will worsen when i turn into my early 20s. i'm almost 21 now, could be it?
@doorroo @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal @opal I have not seen evidence yet that proves whether the mentally ill are predisposed to seek drugs or if drug use causes mental illness, I consider it an unknown area
@doorroo @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal @opal I'm lumping cannabis in with drugs
@Jazzy_Butts @doorroo @rats @AbNormal @opal i'm inclined to believe both, with a higher proportion on the side of the mentally ill seeking drugs.
but to start with, here, you need to define what constitutes as "mentally ill" and what constitutes "drugs" and "drug use"
but to start with, here, you need to define what constitutes as "mentally ill" and what constitutes "drugs" and "drug use"
@bitterblossom @Jazzy_Butts @doorroo @rats @AbNormal
>you need to define what constitutes as "mentally ill" and what constitutes "drugs" and "drug use"
do any of us really? i think we're all on the same page without the filler, here
>you need to define what constitutes as "mentally ill" and what constitutes "drugs" and "drug use"
do any of us really? i think we're all on the same page without the filler, here
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @doorroo @rats @AbNormal you'd think that, but people on fedi can get oddly anal about things when they feel like arguing a point. As per the earlier discussion on the nature of language and math, it's best to be certain everyone is using terminology the same way in order for communication to be as accurate as possible.
and i know people have different beliefs for which chems count as "drugs" and how much consumption of what constitutes drug use, and you wouldn't believe how many hellthreads exploded precisely over the lack of agreement on what was considered a mental illness.
and i know people have different beliefs for which chems count as "drugs" and how much consumption of what constitutes drug use, and you wouldn't believe how many hellthreads exploded precisely over the lack of agreement on what was considered a mental illness.
@bitterblossom @opal @doorroo @rats @AbNormal my definition of drugs is what I read in the dictionary, and that is any substance which effects homeostasis. And so everything is practically a drug. Most people do not like this definition and so usually when I say drug I am talking about drugs that have a noticable psychoactive effect, I'm not talking about tylonol or vanilla.
@Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats @AbNormal i say "drug" to mean any chemical tool that's used with the intention to alter consciousness. everything is, to some degree, psychoactive, but that's because we use our brain for nearly everything. opening your eyes and analysing the world around you is psychoactive
@Jazzy_Butts @opal @doorroo @rats @AbNormal i basically agree with the first definition, but i would always include such things as tylenol. idk about vanilla, never heard of it doing anything besides being a flavoring (psa, some vanilla flavorings are actually beaver musk extract). Caffeine is a drug, but some people will argue against that...
technically, everything becomes a drug, as a matter of dosage - at some point or in some fashion it'll be a poison or have some unnatural effect on the body. even water. practically... i think use of the term should be limited to those things which have a measurable or notable effect on the body's or mind's state. which would include a cup of coffee, but not the amount of oils in a greasy pizza that causes an outbreak of zits on your face.
technically, everything becomes a drug, as a matter of dosage - at some point or in some fashion it'll be a poison or have some unnatural effect on the body. even water. practically... i think use of the term should be limited to those things which have a measurable or notable effect on the body's or mind's state. which would include a cup of coffee, but not the amount of oils in a greasy pizza that causes an outbreak of zits on your face.
@Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal @opal goes both ways, i was already high-functioning autist (aspergers) and showed symptoms of schizotypal disorder in my teens. the shrooms and weed i took could be the catalyst for the recent bipolar disorder diagnosis
@Jazzy_Butts @AbNormal @opal @doorroo @rats why i always gotta be a normie among freaks and a freak among normies
this shit gets lonely
this shit gets lonely
@bitterblossom @opal @Jazzy_Butts @rats @AbNormal consider yourself a mediator, the average NT would call this thread schizo and say no more
@doorroo @opal @Jazzy_Butts @rats @AbNormal schizo is nothing
some of the shit people say when we start arguing about pedophilia - on both sides - is fucking insane.
some of the shit people say when we start arguing about pedophilia - on both sides - is fucking insane.
@doorroo @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal there's scientific support for the theory that cannabis use can alleviate symptoms related to autism spectrum disorder. as for a bipolar diagnosis, weed and shrooms can easily fuck with your emotional homeostasis. this year i found out that lsd makes me manic
so, i'd be cautious about the BPD diagnosis because drug use is involved here, and that could very well be the only catalyst for you to exhibit BPD-like symptoms. it's a chronic condition though, so if you still experience manic/depressive cycles well after discontinuing drug use, yes, it's cause for concern
so, i'd be cautious about the BPD diagnosis because drug use is involved here, and that could very well be the only catalyst for you to exhibit BPD-like symptoms. it's a chronic condition though, so if you still experience manic/depressive cycles well after discontinuing drug use, yes, it's cause for concern
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats
> support for the idea that weed helps alleviate autism symptoms
I THOUGHT I WAS JUST CRAZY
I THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST THE WEED TALKING
.. though I can't say whether I dose myself like they did in the papers
> support for the idea that weed helps alleviate autism symptoms
I THOUGHT I WAS JUST CRAZY
I THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST THE WEED TALKING
.. though I can't say whether I dose myself like they did in the papers
@AbNormal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats
>I can't say whether I dose myself like they did in the papers
more weed = more gooder
here's the study i found a while ago btw https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34043900/
>I can't say whether I dose myself like they did in the papers
more weed = more gooder
here's the study i found a while ago btw https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34043900/
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal i've only used weed maybe a dozen times in my life, all months apart, and shrooms once so i'm fairly certain that the cycles will continue
@doorroo @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal yeah, they will
what helped me out was my first lsd trip back in 2017. but it didn't immediately help me, it just expanded my mind enough so that i could spend my sober hours contemplating it, and it set a really good foundation for that. this process took me two years before i realised that my previous "frantic" thought pattern was gone. the only other drug i consumed was alcohol
what helped me out was my first lsd trip back in 2017. but it didn't immediately help me, it just expanded my mind enough so that i could spend my sober hours contemplating it, and it set a really good foundation for that. this process took me two years before i realised that my previous "frantic" thought pattern was gone. the only other drug i consumed was alcohol
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats feck
I've got a hookup for lsd, but I want my first time done right (spirit journey style)
I've got a hookup for lsd, but I want my first time done right (spirit journey style)
@AbNormal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats the trick with lsd is to set expectations, while keeping in mind that your trip will deviate. a trip *will* take you along for the ride and you'll always be tossed around a bit. you can direct your attention where you want by listening to music or going outside or whatever, but don't overplan, it fucks it up. just do what your body tells you
also: plenty of water, and fruit is gonna be your best bet. i generally make smoothies or get a protein shake at the store if i'm gonna trip. but at this point i've gotten better with eating on acid, so really i just eat whatever i want, but mostly stick to fruit/nuts because meat and grain don't really agree with my head when i'm tripping balls
also: plenty of water, and fruit is gonna be your best bet. i generally make smoothies or get a protein shake at the store if i'm gonna trip. but at this point i've gotten better with eating on acid, so really i just eat whatever i want, but mostly stick to fruit/nuts because meat and grain don't really agree with my head when i'm tripping balls
@opal @AbNormal @bitterblossom @rats @doorroo Neat feels like a sin, fruit is nice, it doesn't lament being eaten
@opal @AbNormal @bitterblossom @rats @doorroo MEAT feels like a sin, eating meat feels sinful, eating fruit feels neutral
@Jazzy_Butts @AbNormal @bitterblossom @rats @doorroo i tripped with a friend this year and for a while we were talking about how *we are the banana we're eating*
@Jazzy_Butts @opal @AbNormal @bitterblossom @doorroo unironically this is why i am a vegan
things like fruits, vegetables, tubers feel like god gave those to us to eat
im non-judgemental about this, i understand why others may not, but it feels divinely correct to me
things like fruits, vegetables, tubers feel like god gave those to us to eat
im non-judgemental about this, i understand why others may not, but it feels divinely correct to me
@Jazzy_Butts @opal @AbNormal @bitterblossom @rats mm i only get this feeling from processed meat. i adore and drink an absurd amount of milk weekly and my diet consists at least half of meat, i get a discomfort if the meat is from a factory farm or is kosher/halal slaughtered
@Jazzy_Butts @opal @AbNormal @rats @doorroo imagine if apples cried out when you picked them off the trees, or when they rolled down the conveyor belts at the automatic peeler-slicers...
@bitterblossom @Jazzy_Butts @doorroo @rats @AbNormal industrialism actually deeply disturbs me i dont really like reading about this shit even if i know it happens
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @AbNormal
'dominion' was the most brutal thing ive seen, in a lot of ways i think the existence of factory farming makes horror as a genre obsolete. how can a work of fiction ever be more horrifying than our reality?
'dominion' was the most brutal thing ive seen, in a lot of ways i think the existence of factory farming makes horror as a genre obsolete. how can a work of fiction ever be more horrifying than our reality?
@rats @opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo truth is stranger than fiction, and the monsters aren't under our beds but in our mirrors
@AbNormal @opal @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats A bear, when it finds a person (in a predatory sense) it will incapacitate them, likely by holding them down. It will then begin to eat, while the person is alive. It will begin eating at the orifice that does not have teeth. They will rip it apart, wide open, guts spilling out, not a care in the world, happy, while the human screams. We are not divergent. It is our empathy that makes us divergent.
@AbNormal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @doorroo @rats another thing, i forgot to say this even though it's like very important: meditate beforehand. train yourself to recognise uncomfortable thought patterns and try to accept them and let them go. that'll allow for a much more directed trip experience
@opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats @AbNormal mm could be it, everyone metabolises differently so i may not have found my proper intoxicant. people on the spectrum have a higher level of bufotenine in their body so we are at base level always experiencing hallucenogens, no telling how it will react
@AbNormal @opal @Jazzy_Butts @bitterblossom @rats there are a few studies on it (e.g. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/20150873/ ). makes perfect sense to me. this basic heightened amount of hallucenogenic chemical plays into an 'always high' feeling we have - anything from intense visual snow and involuntary visualisation to coordination and socialisation quirks, colour distortion, creative fixations, so forth
the brain is a mysterious machination
