Can't believe not a single, not a SINGLE ONE of the fedi posters has hit it off with me romantically 
I should just kill myself but I still have stupid hope left. I hope my circuit boards get here soon so I can ignore my lonely feelings with them.
No REAL girl would ever want me!
No REAL person!
I should KILL MYSELF
but what if the dream after death is worse than this one! Like Shakespeare said! I WANT TO DIE IF I CAN'T BE LOVED, I WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO FORGET, BUT IT'S FOREVER, THIS IS FOREVER, THIS REMEMBERING, THIS MOMENT, I WANT TO DIE! I AM UNLOVED! MY TRIBE HAS DIED! I AM ALONE! A TRIBE OF ONE! I AM DEAD! I AM ALREADY DEAD! THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME! I WILL DIE ALONE WITHOUT A MIRACLE!
@driftwood Two jitterbugs to learn with, then some others, and eventually I'll repair my old phones battery and charging port once I'm confident enough
@driftwood I want to buy junk cheap and fix it to resell, maybe one day, if that's feasible and worth it
@driftwood And I also want to make robots and automatic systems, so I don't have to water my plants or change my fishes water or anything, I have to learn about sensors and programming and pumps and valves.
@driftwood It's just an idea for now, I'm going to give one of the jitterbugs to my mom as a present and keep the second as a momento, I ordered two by accident but I figure it's good practice anyway
@Ruusu Just tired
No no NO NO
NO NO NO
NONONONONO
LONELY FOREVER LONELY FOREVER
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*cuts self and rubs blood all over face and collapses sobbing*