No REAL girl would ever want me!
No REAL person!
I should KILL MYSELF
but what if the dream after death is worse than this one! Like Shakespeare said! I WANT TO DIE IF I CAN'T BE LOVED, I WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO FORGET, BUT IT'S FOREVER, THIS IS FOREVER, THIS REMEMBERING, THIS MOMENT, I WANT TO DIE! I AM UNLOVED! MY TRIBE HAS DIED! I AM ALONE! A TRIBE OF ONE! I AM DEAD! I AM ALREADY DEAD! THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME! I WILL DIE ALONE WITHOUT A MIRACLE!