@Papergal I need her irl, I need her to pick me up with her strong solid unwavering arms, never will I hear from her lips "you're too heavy..." or a grunt of exertion, I will be as light as a feather to her and she will protec me. I had a tall goddess of a babysitter and she doted on me, I have been ruined by that. When I watched the anime Claymore I cried because it reminded me of what I fear I will never have again.