@icedquinn I understand. People are selfish. If they think you're important, they will do a lot to impress you.
@icedquinn what's it like?
I just thought about being a little kid in the 1800s as an assistant to an electrician scientist and totally understanding the magnificent intricacies and beauty of electromagnetism...and then one day you're helping with an experiment and go oops and then nothing, all at once and so fast and big that you can't comprehend. That would be a nice way to go.
I'll never forget the female teacher who taught me much about life. She was an unusual woman, hard as nails but soft at the same time, slick, like a needle. She liked me. I was charming, hadn't been hurt yet, was confident, we flirted a lot. She understood the flippantness of people in a way that I would not come to understand for another 10 years at least. Very little surprised or shocked her. "Was, until it wasn't" was a phrase she might say, but she was still human, under her porcelain veneer, I saw that weakness and that fragility and I wanted to protect her, so that she could teach me more.
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