I've seen other maps address this and I've always said that sex denial, forced sex denial, when the people having the sex want to be having it and no one's coercing them, are forced to not do that (and in so making any breaking of the rule something they will have to keep secret or face punishment for), it inflicts mental damages very similar to people who have had forced sex abuse, it's still abuse, it's even a fetish, it's called forced chastity. Many Americans are doing fetishes on their children, like Forced Chastity, but it's not called sexual abuse when it really is.
I'm sorry I'm falling apart, I'm not the Jazzy I used to be, you used to admire me, I'm sure, but now you see me and say, "there's that pathetic Jazzy, so sad compared to how he used to be, he was a real up and comer once, he used to get dozens of likes and 10s of shares on a single post back in the day...he's pathetic now."
@bestest She tested by convincing me to help her break out of court ordered treatment, and then took so long to text me to pick her up that I was too tired and didn't have it in me to help her escape the law by then, and said please go finish your treatment and I'll see you again, she only had one month left. We were on track to get married. Next thing I know, she disappears, becomes a missing person for a weekend, gets found by police, finishes her treatment, but acts cold toward me and sex is passionless compared to before. She, years later, confessed to giving an old guy in a truck head to get to the city with her friend who broke out with her, and they both get basically raped by this old guy, and then they get to the city and get tricked by a street whore into going into a crack house where they were raped by ghetto niggers who told them they weren't allowed to leave, drugged them, and she was so out of it she didn't make them use condoms, and she doesn't know how many filed through. The worst part was I got through on her cell looking for her and she picked up whispering, scared, and I heard some ghetto nigger in the back say "GET OFF THAT PHONE". It makes me want to genitally mutilate racist ghetto nigger rapists who target white girls. She was broken by the niggers so I saw them as breaking my future because she was going to be my wife and so I became very racist even though I'm mixed race and I'm not any more but for a while I was a nazi and was a one man cult and would pray to an effigy of Hitler and sig heil to it and swear vengence and shit. I'm glad I'm not that person anymore. I still hate bbc porn though. Makes me want to chop the bbcs unless they're feminized bbcs which means a black tranny who passes and isn't a hon because I don't perceive them as threatening because they don't behave masculinity. /vent
@bestest She tested by convincing me to help her break out of court ordered treatment, and then took so long to text me to pick her up that I was too tired and didn't have it in me to help her escape the law by then, and said please go finish your treatment and I'll see you again, she only had one month left. We were on track to get married. Next thing I know, she disappears, becomes a missing person for a weekend, gets found by police, finishes her treatment, but acts cold toward me and sex is passionless compared to before. She, years later, confessed to giving an old guy in a truck head to get to the city with her friend who broke out with her, and they both get basically raped by this old guy, and then they get to the city and get tricked by a street whore into going into a crack house where they were raped by ghetto niggers who told them they weren't allowed to leave, drugged them, and she was so out of it she didn't make them use condoms, and she doesn't know how many filed through. The worst part was I got through on her cell looking for her and she picked up whispering, scared, and I heard some ghetto nigger in the back say "GET OFF THAT PHONE". It makes me want to genitally mutilate racist ghetto nigger rapists who target white girls. She was broken by the niggers so I saw them as breaking my future because she was going to be my wife and so I became very racist even though I'm mixed race and I'm not any more but for a while I was a nazi and was a one man cult and would pray to an effigy of Hitler and sig heil to it and swear vengence and shit. I'm glad I'm not that person anymore. I still hate bbc porn though. Makes me want to chop the bbcs unless they're feminized bbcs which means a black tranny who passes and isn't a hon because I don't perceive them as threatening because they don't behave masculinity. /vent
@bestest Thankyou you've all helped me feel at peace with my decision to leave her alone. I kept worrying that I'm supposed to "prove my love" to her and she's waiting for me to, but I guess not. Of if she is, like you said that's weird and she needs therapy from someone who won't get mad at her or hurt by her.
Project ended.
Project status: Failure
Debrief complete.