YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I want to experiment with hormones to see how they make me feel but I don't actually want to mess my body up or anything, like cancer or some shit

The hormones are calling to me in whispers like the one ring...

Jazzy in 2009: gives friends rides everywhere, brings snacks for the group, lifts everyones spirits

Jazzy in 2012: barely sees "friends", drunk all the time, hanging out with gays and in bars, pilled out of his mind, goes where the wind blows him, never got raped thank god

Jazzy in 2014: In a stupor, room spinning, vidscreen on, it transmits one singular idea and thought - TRUMP

Jazzy in 2016: Trains hard, cardio every day, pushes past breaking point to get stronger, lifts, has a purpose again

Jazzy in 2020: Disenchanted with Trump, feeling betrayed, unsure of purpose...loses direction...Converts to Judaism

Jazzy in 2022: Has stopped all combat training, and taken up dance. Still catches himself boxing sometimes and shifts into dancing. Has put energies and attentions into simple gardening. No longer pays very close attention to politics. But the feeling of tightness, of a coiled spring, is still in his chest and his head. He hopes, that if he ignores it, and avoids martial training, it will eventually go away completely. It feels like always being on edge. Like always waiting for an attack that never comes. Therapist said it was PTSD.

I need a screen I can strap to my face because my necci hurts T-T

Is controlled madness needed for "society"? An offgassing mechanism to keep the pressure vessel from rupturing?

Something becomes apparent to me, these arguments would be meaningless to me if they were just noises, if I didn't understand the language. I keep coming back to this abstraction of language, as a concept. Thankyou for reminding me about Platos The Republic @amerika , apparently I listened to this before but I can't remember. I must have been wasted.

"How is your sex life Sophocles, are you still capable of making love to a woman?"

"Don't talk about it good sir" was Sophocles's reply, "it is with the greatest relief that I have escaped it, like escaping from a fierce and frenzied master."

Cope but also probably true.

Listening to this rn
https://youtu.be/CqGsg01ycpk