This is the song that plays when I write this in someones notes and unfollow them
https://youtu.be/EJC-_j3SnXk
Why am I so obsessed with race you may ask? Well I am multiracial, and I live in america, which is going through a second or third race cold war, and my first gf was raped by a group of blacks using intimidation and roofies, so I kind of am fixated on this notion of blackness and whiteness and race tensions, my black father would abuse my white mother before she told him to leave, and so that painted a picture in my mind as well, of black as the opressor and white as the victim, and that is a perfectly valid contextual takeaway, but I am often blinded by my own perspective to the wider and more generalized take of "black = victim and white=opressor"
I can say nigger, a poem
I can say nigger at the mall
I can say nigger on a call
I can say nigger at the zoo
I can say nigger directly to you
I can say nigger on the moon
I can say nigger with a spoon
I can say nigger in a shoe
I can say nigger this much is true
but when I say nigger just what does that do
does it offend
does it upend
does it make everyone blue
but what is a nigger but simply a word that you have heard before
it's nothing new
it's not even true
unless you open that door
and make yourself a nigger
one who is the word
is that what you are
is that what you do
don't be so absurd
so when I say nigger
rest assured
I'm not talking about you
unless you've made yourself a nigger
in which case that's on you
The Trench