YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

@Skadi @icedquinn Thankyou, I've had a long personal journey with Christianity, I broke from doctrine at 9, questioned god for a long time, at 13 I opposed and challenged god, I threatened him, then I tried contacting satan, no luck there either, threatened satan too, then insulted him some more for not being real. Then I got into spiritualism, read a lot about the occult, witchcraft, voodoo, demonology, exorcism, lycanthropy, transformations/transmutations, I spent nights out in the woods several times with weapons I had made and/or blessed, with the intention of drawing out a demon or monster to kill, and prove to people that I wasn't crazy, and that this secret stuff was real (because I was raised in a mystery cult, I was obsessed with conspiracies and hidden truths). At 16 I went to the crossroads after performing the summoning ritual for Papa Legba, I went at the witching hour. I brought one penny, as the only way to make a deal with the demon/devil which can't speak, is to offer him compensation for the deal, since he can speak he can't refuse, and now he accepts a penny instead of taking your soul. I asked for what I asked for, got back in my car, and left. I still have yet to know one way or another what is real and what is not. After great personal tragedy at 20, I spiral deep into chaos magic, complete and total insanity, no structure, insane. Lost. At 24 I heard Jordan Peterson. I latched on for dear life. His words made sense. Things made sense. I researched the world wars, Hitler, Jews, Christianity, I went back to the Bible and read what I never read, or barely read, the world started making sense. The old testament God is a being of pure wickedness and evil, if God is real I refuse to believe that is him. Jesus was a good man, I respect Jesus so much, his words make me cry. I don't know if Jesus is God, or if God is real, or good. I decided at 28 to convert to Judaism, symbolically, as a messianic Jew at first, but I don't think the distinction matters anymore. Why am I a Jew? Because I was raised Christian and can't escape my upbringing, but I now know Christians are nothing but servants of Jews (the true Jews not the fake Jews) and so I said to myself, do I want to be a servant, who can't even talk to God (he has to go through Jesus) or do I want to be one of the chosen people who gets to converse directly with the almighty, and even argue with him? The choice was easy for me. I call myself an atheist or agnostic Jew. I still respect Jesus, but I don't consider him the literal son of God (in story he's the son God but I consider the story to be a metaphorical fiction) and finally, I consider The Book of Judas to be real...and so Jesus is actually not the son of YHWH, but the son of a much older, more powerful god, and he is here to save us from YHWH, who is a type of demon.