nsfw
Ok guys confession time. This causes me stress. I feel inadequate for it. Anyway, I don't jizz much. Like, ever since I was a kid, and a teen, and through my 20s, I just don't cum much. My dick is above average according to google, but I still feel like it's REALLY small, like I feel like it's not a real dick unless it looks like a pringles can, and is also uncircumcised...I AM circumcized, which is mutilation, and a form of rape, I was genitally raped with a knife by a "doctor". Anyway, my dick, I wish it was just more than it is, you know? I wish my loads were huge, but they're small. I've seen guys shoot loads, in person, that were huge, like 2 shot glasses full of cum, *spurt, spurt, spurt spurt spurt, spurt, spurt, spurt* that's 8 fucking spurts, I don't cum like that and I wish I did, I cum like *spurt, spurt* and they're small, the spurts are not big, I cum like a teaspoon usually, maybe a tablespoon, but not much regardless. I've even taken supplements and abstained from cumming for days, and the best I can do is fill half a shot glass. :(
https://youtu.be/ePq7PRQcZOo
I love the effort they put in with the acting and sets, even if it's goofy
I was never good with numbers so thought I wouldn't be good with computers but computers aren't like hard math, they're like legos, if I think about it that way I can do it
If I didn't have that creepy spider guy as my stepfather, I never would have learned a few basic things about computers as a kid, and I never would have started now finally getting really interesting in them without feeling overwhelmed. He was never a very good teacher, he wasn't around much, but a few moments lodged themselves in my memory, and some words, and slang, about them, so they feel familiar. But it was always too complicated. This all changed with a lego set I got as a gift a while back, it was one of those car sets, so I build the thing, and while I'm building it I feel like a kid again, but this time I don't feel scared, I felt scared a lot as a kid. And then I realized, I can do things, I can put things together...so I get looking at models online, and I think "I could do these" but I wanted more, and I thought of computers. I wanted to put them together and/or alter them and learn how they worked. And then I got interested in software again, I was long ago but never learned much, but now I want to learn.
I'm
NOT going to disassociate around my date
NOT going to trauma dump on them
NOT going to accuse them of cheating on me after they leave my field if view
IT'S NOT MY JOB TO TEACH PEOPLE ANYTHING
I'M NOT A SAVIOR
I'M NOT EVEN SPECIAL TO ANYONE WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME
I DON'T NEED TO CARRY THIS BURDEN
I CAN ENJOY LIFE
I CAN BE HAPPY
LIKE I USED TO BE
WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER
DRIVING ON A SUMMER DAY
TO A TOURIST SPOT
WITH FRIENDS, WHO WANT TO HAVE SEX
AND THIS TIME I'M NOT TOO AFRAID
SO IT'S ALL SMOOTH
The Trench