I'm sorry for hating a part of myself internalized racism is wrong all parts of myself are good even the "black" (african origin) parts. And black people are NORMAL people and do not have "genetic predisposition" for learned behaviors, the disparity between blacks and whites is due to institutionalized racism and a long history of oppression and fetishization and demonization, black people can talk "white" and calm and nice and gentle just like whites, but all the media shows is black people who are acting like fools, wonder WHY THAT IS (it's institutionalized racism).
Can this be my vibe once I fix my trauma and get my confidence back (and you fall in love with me if you're cute?)?
https://youtu.be/AjY8HvpNu6o
People taking my autonomy away and sadistically abusing me in life 99.99% of the time did not ever sexually abuse me, and yet I still feel violated and invalidated. I feel raped, yet I never was, and so trying to talk about this with normies irl gets me scorn, they rarely see my abuse as abuse, "Oh, people bullied you? Boo hoo! Oh, you were kidnapped? GROW UP! You were gaslit? GATKEPT, GORLBOSSED."
I hate hate hate hate how people will say when someone comes forward about childhood sexual experiences "OH YOU'RE NOT NORMAL CHILDREN AREN'T SUPPOSED TO DO THAT"......THESE BITCHES TRIED TO NO TRUE SCOTSMAN BEING A CHILD "NO NO, YOU WEREN'T A CHILD LIKE THE OTHER CHILDREN, YOU WERE DAMAGED, AND THAT TOOK YOUR INNOCENCE, AND YOU STOPPED BEING A CHILD OR SOME SHIT SO EVERY TIME YOU HAD SEXPLAY WITH ANOTHER CHILD OF YOUR EXACT SAME AGE YOU WERE ACTUALLY SOME OTHER ENTITY IN A SEPARATE CATEGORY CALLED "DAMAGED CHILD"....FUCK YOU!!!!!!!
Down
Into the deep
The trench