YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

Humans are supposed to be unified, humans are supposed to be helpful and friendly, without this, you don't have humans, you have monsters

I need to find those Monster Girl Pin-ups Scully, I know they're out there

I haven't drawn anything in months but last night was different

Autistic people in media: 010001100101110100101000111100101001010011101110001011101000100110110011

Autistic people irl: *doesn't understand, cries, has no money, is very good at a specific thing that has no real purpose*

I have a very all or nothing mentality and that's not conducive for a healthy mind, so I'm trying to change.

I wish I could protect this world but I can't, so all I can do is watch, like a train crash

I feel like this is the INTENDED purpose of therapy, (or it was once upon a time before it was turned into a business), to roll back someones personality to who they were before the trauma, while maintaining their knowledge of the events with no emotional attachment.

I wish there was a way to rollback my personality to before I got hurt, while keeping the KNOWLEDGE (no emotional attachment) I gained from the experience so I don't get hurt again... because it's really hard to be outgoing, cheerful, and friendly, when you're traumatized, and if you're not those things people with good attitudes aren't going to want to be around you for very long.

I'm sorry I don't fit into your little faggot box like you do, I'm sorry my personality is bigger than yours

it feels like everyone will just turn on me as soon as they disagree with me, about anything at all, I suddenly become the enemy to be repelled or converted, and it's very cruel

I want to find my place among the community (gay community, straight community, any community), but I don't think it exists

Uf I was a betting man I would say that baraag will be refederated by February. No reason whatsoever for that confidence, just drunk, and deducing that hardware stuff won't be gotten to until well after the holidays.

Empathy for the bad guy is so bittersweet

OH THE HORIZON IS HERE AND THIS DOT IS WHERE THE FOOT GOES AND ALL THE HEADS HAVE TO LINE UP

like STOP
SHUT THE FUCK UP
THIS IS NOT DRAWING
THIS IS FUCKING GEOMETRY
SHUT THE FUCK UP
THIS IS GRAPHIC DESIGN
I WANT TO DRAW
WE DRAW WITH OUR EYES
IF I CANNOT DRAW (Like Kim Jung Gi could RIP) WITHOUT LAYING DOWN FUCKING GUIDE LINES LIKE YOU ARE BUILDING A FUCKING BLUEPRINT...THEN WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT? GEOMETRY IS NOT FUCKING ART IT IS FUCKING MATH.

Drawing is LOOK, then LOOK AWAY, then DRAW, then LOOK BACK, again and again and again, until it fucking looks right, it comes from the GUTS

It doesn't matter. None of it matters. Stop talking. Fucking draw. Every god damn art book I pick up is a useless wordy piece of shit. I give up. I thought I could learn something from a fuck like Lumis but I can't, all I can do is draw draw draw draw draw because words are useless, worth fuck all, fuck words, they can't help you in drawing. Stop listening. Start doing. Fuck all the know it all assholes telling how, fuck them, just fucking do it. I didn't become a good cook from shitty fucking retarded ass dead words (all words are dead vomitous things) in cook books I learned by cooking, and making hundreds of shitty, awful, crap, but I didn't give up and stop cooking half way through, I finished the crap, and then I ate the crap, and I used that suffering as a reminder of what not to do next time.