I had a very rough night I barely slept at all and it all hurts so much it feels like yesterday never ended I need help but can't afford healthcare, I really worry I'm just going to die one day from something preventable, like one day my veins in my brain will explode and I'll just die, because they had been worn down so much from years of not sleeping properly and getting no help for it. The body repairs itself when sleeping. If I'm not sleeping my body is not repairing, I will literally die. I don't have money to afford healthcare.
But then he ended up in an abusive relationship with an old man who would fuck his broken butthole, so hopefully his butthole has fallen out by now
Like he wouldn't even be nice about it he would just DEMAND nudes and if I was like, "H-hey, s-sorry, I'm just.... really sad right now, I'm not feeling so good" all I'd get back was "k", he wouldn't ask how I was doing, he wouldn't try to help at all, he was a bastard and I gave him love he didn't deserve
The guy I liked at the time (he was a fem emo twink but he was NOT nice) would like demand I send him nudes and shit and that ruined it for me, I hate that, I wish that never happened, I could have made some money with my younger body but he sucked all the fun and joy out of it, so I started hating being in front of the camera, and then it spread until I hated photography. I'm trying to heal.
Hey guys, I haven't been able to sleep much, my bed literally hurts to lay down in, it hurts my shoulders, neck, upper back, and lower back, it hurts so much I think about kms. I couldn't take it and just made a bed on the floor even though I'm dead fucking tired, the floor hurts my knees but at least my spine hurts less.
I distinctly remember being a kid and saying to my mom once "I want to marry an ugly woman" and she was like "...I don't think the woman you marry will appreciate you calling her ugly" and I was like "No, she'll be ugly, I want to marry an ugly woman, she'll still be hot though, she'll just be ugly"
The Trench