YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I think I'm starting to figure out how to "compartmentalize" (a fancy word that means lying, or pretending something doesn't exist when it does), I'm starting to figure out this whole "privacy" thing. Things I do alone, for my own entertainment, that nobody cares about, are valid and I don't need to tell others about them to gauge their level of approval. I don't need to narcissistically feed off the validation of others. I don't need other people to give me permission to exist.

Just want to be held
https://youtu.be/rfHed-vB_oM

This guy is an engineer who has done more for prosthetics in his free time than most professional groups do in years
https://youtu.be/GIU33BIYveE

"Girls like that look like men you must be gay"
Just say you're scared, it's ok, you don't have to make it about me.

When Jazzy says "I like big girls" fattys aren't what I'm talking about. THIS is what I think when I say "big girls".
https://youtu.be/DlevApBWGQg

It's a psyop when (((they))) only allow videos of whites being jumped by blacks but NEVER blacks being jumped by whites, that shit is like kryptonite to them, and they scrub that shit IMMEDIATELY, can't have things being fair and equal, no no no, "it's unacceptable to show blacks getting beat because that's CRUEL and could incite more violence against them but videos of whites getting beat are necessary because whites are historical oppressors "

Raping a racist but hot black bitch with your white cock (if you're black just blindfold her and tell her your white friend is about to rape her so she thinks it's white)

Laying down hoping I can fall asleep
I had a quick steak so I didn't go to bed hungy and with no protein all day. (I'm sorry to my veggie frens, it was from a small family farm so the cow had a good life)

Emptiness is hard to face, when everything feels so important

I feel anxious and scared

Oh god damn I lost a day! No wonder I've been feeling weird, anyway, let's just pretend it's still friday real quick.

Friday! Church night!
Tonight's church will be focused on quiet contemplation. The tenet of nothingness. Empty mind, no emotions, just observe, don't judge or anticipate or plan. #CoTT

The chess femboy I play chess with is still around, he gave me a pep talk and now I'm taking my time and making better moves. Took his queen from across the board! He usually wins.