After Hitman 2 I'll play Contracts, and then finally finish Blood Money. I'll probably try and find a Hitman original to play if there's any out there for cheap that actually work. I don't know how to do emulation, I should probably learn. I used to be able to do it but I couldn't get it to work right and gave up. Idk how to do file editing or anything so I would have to learn. Why can't information be injected into my head why the fuck do I need to use focus and willpower? I have none. Just shove the information in.
CW: nudity, #shota
Finally finished this boy I started back in June. He’s inspired by Rakna-Kadaki from #monsterhunter , eventually I wanna draw a bunch more shotas based off monsters :)
I've also gotten into sneaking games, I used to hate them, but I'm almost done with Hitman 2. I've beaten Absolution but that's barely a hitman game. I must have learned patience since the last time I played because now I find the waiting kind of relaxing and peaceful, when I first played I was bored and frustrated. Now I like figuring the puzzles out, and don't enjoy using walkthroughs. Discovery is much of the fun. It's not discovery if I'm following a guide.
I don't want to get fit to become masculine, I want to be a femboy. I want people to look at me and not know if I'm a girl or not. I want to be feminine and to have a much taller femboy wife and a much shorter other femboy wife, and we'll protect eachother.
I'm depressed about being fat, I got some preworkout powder to give me energy. Caffeine makes me jittery but this stuff just makes me feel great. It tastes like blue raspberry but not sour like I was expecting. I wanted sour so I'll get a different kind next time. It has some vitamins, a low dose of caffeine, and creatine.
Sunday loveday. I was thinking about how the pagans used to do things. Orgies, "Sun"day, "Sol"stice. Sun worship. Getting drunk. Crossdressing. Intergenerational sex. Public sex. Public nudity. Sex with animals. All were celebrated at certain times in pagan societies. On certain holidays. Then there's the dark side, the human sacrifices, the rapes. Let's not do those parts.
I want to rape an evil femboy (fantasy), I want to find and rape a femboy who hurts others (fantasy), I want to rape the femboy after getting him cornered and pinned (fantasy), I want to make him cry and break his pride (fantasy), I want him to become subservient, I want him to be afraid of displeasing me (fantasy fantasy fantasy).
It's really depressing I don't have a solid chat group of fedi frens. I an thinking of officially announcing giving up on trying to find fedifrens to chat with, it's clear I make people uncomfortable and they don't want to chat with me or only want to chat with me for the freak show aspect and get bored when I turn out to be a normal person with average moral values.
The Trench