JazzFLASH @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I sometimes find myself acting like an npc and then feel embarrassed. I mean I'll sometimes move, stop, return to starting position, pause, move again. It's like brain farts, and it makes me feel like an npc.

For some reason the humor of the minions seems very german to me

I wish I had a paragraph or so of fedi fren blogs to read.

There's a limit to everything, if the controls are too unintuitive the game becomes unplayable, and the fun is gone again

Not only sneaking games but cinematic games and story choice games, I used to hate them, despise them even, they "weren't real games" to me, even rpgs were "barely" real games to me back then. The old me thought that if a game wasn't a test of REFLEXES, then it was baby shit. Even pattern games weren't real games to me, though there was a reflex aspect the real core of the game was memorization, if you get good enough at a pattern game you can play with your eyes closed, so these weren't real games to me either. I thought a "real game" had to be reflexive, and the enemies had to be randomized so you couldn't rely on your memory, you needed to use your eyes. To me lightgun games were the pinnacle of "real gaming", shooters came in second but because lightgun games were so rare my primary game of choice were fps games. Coming in third were racing games, and fighting games. Now I can appreciate a cinematic experience, I can appreciate unique game mechanics, even if they're unintuitive, them being unintuitive is part of the challenge which is part of the fun, and it adds to the novelty which also adds to the fun and memorability.

After Hitman 2 I'll play Contracts, and then finally finish Blood Money. I'll probably try and find a Hitman original to play if there's any out there for cheap that actually work. I don't know how to do emulation, I should probably learn. I used to be able to do it but I couldn't get it to work right and gave up. Idk how to do file editing or anything so I would have to learn. Why can't information be injected into my head why the fuck do I need to use focus and willpower? I have none. Just shove the information in.

I've also gotten into sneaking games, I used to hate them, but I'm almost done with Hitman 2. I've beaten Absolution but that's barely a hitman game. I must have learned patience since the last time I played because now I find the waiting kind of relaxing and peaceful, when I first played I was bored and frustrated. Now I like figuring the puzzles out, and don't enjoy using walkthroughs. Discovery is much of the fun. It's not discovery if I'm following a guide.

Drank my preworkout but have been scrolling for the past hour or so, trying to find any other games similar to Alan Wake.

Today I'm going to try and clean and work out.

I don't want to get fit to become masculine, I want to be a femboy. I want people to look at me and not know if I'm a girl or not. I want to be feminine and to have a much taller femboy wife and a much shorter other femboy wife, and we'll protect eachother.

I'm depressed about being fat, I got some preworkout powder to give me energy. Caffeine makes me jittery but this stuff just makes me feel great. It tastes like blue raspberry but not sour like I was expecting. I wanted sour so I'll get a different kind next time. It has some vitamins, a low dose of caffeine, and creatine.