I hate looking at myself in the mirror everyday.
I know by average looks I'm a 5 but that basically means I'm invisible or at worst creepy if I'm crazy.
I'm working out everyday but I still feel like a fat piece of shit that has a goblin face. Even though I can prove I have improved my face & body from a year ago but it's still not enough.
Lucky my social skills are quite good so I'm always someone people want to talk too.
But I know everything that needs fixing but haven't put in enough time yet to see results.
The best motivation for me is the desire to fuck.
I will not let myself do so until I'm fit so I want to work out.
I crave to be in the gym now.
For the first time in 15 years I can do 3 full non girl push-ups
And I can actually feel something dense in my arm that's building.
I WILL WIN BECAUSE GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH THE GIFT OF LOVE!!!
Part 2
Okay after a day my arm actually feels worse because now I can't make my arm straight with out some pain. I've looked online and read some stuff and apparently I may have overdone it and created some micro tears which is causing it.
My question is should I do normal weightlifting and not hammer curls which is what causes until the pains gone or should I wait until it's fully healed or just say fuck it and do normal lifting anyway.
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