Whoops I haven't eaten for 16 hours on accident
Kinda felt like bitching a little there, ahem
@Corfiot i have cyclothymia (mood disorder similar to bipolar) so i'll have manic/depressive periods that switch around faster than bipolar does but aren't usually as bad. so my energy level can vary quite rapidly. often times i'll get 8 hours of sleep, show up to work and be super tired the whole day, and then right when i get home i'll be super jazzed and unable to sleep at all and end up staying awake for 24 hours or some shit, which fucks me over later.
tuesday night i only slept a couple of hours, so you'd think i would be 100% dead but i only took a 40 minute nap when i got home that i had to force myself to take and that was all the sleep i had for 24 hours. didn't feel tired at all. i've been this way since middle school. staying up past bedtime was punishable though and my mom checked on us every night as part of her OCD routine so i'd always just have to pretend to be asleep.
it's a very fun time. i am glad that i have mostly been able to deal with the depression aspect of it for a while now, but the moments where my energy goes bonkers still fucks me up. sometimes i actually feel like there's a little electric current coursing through me.
Getting to sleep with a schedule that fits with society is an actual task I have to program, people never know when to call me, they feel awkward cause I'll be sleeping at 11:00 or 12:00 or 18:00 or whatever.
Must be different than your issues tho cause I can't bring myself to GO to bed. Once I get there, I almost always sleep. Also, depression symptoms always around the corner if I don't organize my sleep at least a little, sudden doom and gloom onset, not pretty but as I said, one learns to tell what's real and what's not. It's sometimes bizarrely interesting to watch yourself turn depressed all of a sudden, like a switch. Thank god for family, friends and work, I don't think I'd have made it alone.