@hideki I like you

And your renders!

@lelouchebag aw thanks

@hideki sometimes you need to take the first step

@newt sometimes it seems that it's just me doing the effort, but like i said, i'm pretty boring so i understand it to an extent

@djsumdog do you think you will experience some kind of withdrawal syndrome, or it already happened or...

@hideki Nah, I only really used Facebook for Messenger. There are some people who I realize I’ll never talk to again. I actually have still been texting a lot of the people who do matter; but I also realize if I stopped I might not ever hear from them again. I wrote a post about it.

@djsumdog oh yeah, i read it the other day when facebook went down you shared it to me.

The thing with me is that i barely socialize with anyone so i don't really know how to do this kind of "short socializing" thing that everyone does, and i expect something else, that's why people loses interest in me really fast.

@hideki huh … yea I’ve moved around a lot over the years, so I’ve often found myself starting all over again. That might be why I’ve tried to hang onto people so much. I had a cousin who really hung onto my sister and I when we were really young, even though she was overseas and we barely knew each other. It was … odd.

I think now I’m just counting down moving back to my home town next year. I’m just kinda tired of starting all over again; and I know I already have friends there. A lot of people I know have moved back.

I guess I’ve done a lot of the “short socializing” … I was really involved in the dance world, and did meetups and spoken word poetry. After this past year though, it’s hard to care about anything any more.

@djsumdog @hideki I deleted my farcebook almost a decade ago. Since then, only one person from there (other than my parents and sister) bothered keeping in touch with me via other means (phone, e-mail).

Though admittedly, part of it is my fault, too, as I rarely tried to keep in touch with others, either. In fact, part of the reason I deleted FB was to "get away from" some of them. As mean as it may sound, at that time, I felt like if I saw another wedding photo or baby picture I was going to puke.

These days, I spend much more time "socializing" with fedi frens than IRL friends. (Whether that's better or worse, I'll leave that to the philosphers.)

@echo @hideki I first got on fedi in 2018 after I had just lost a job. I had a lot of time and focused on a lot of personal projects for a bit; talking to peeps on fedi. After I started working and had money again, I was more out an about in the city. I guess this whole weird world we live in has been made easier by being able to get on here … although it does feel like it’s just another time sink sometimes; just like how I use to be on Reddit or Hackernews.