You will never be a real fascist. You have no strength, you have no aryan spirit, you have no meth. You are a neoplatonist twisted by the internet into a crude mockery of nature’s perfection.
All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your lack of unprecedented ruthlessness behind closed doors.
Fascists are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed children to sniff out frauds with incredible efficiency. Even fake fascistswho “pass” sound uncanny and unnatural to a Jew. Your inability to militarise is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get an Aryan home with you, they’ll turn tail and bolt the second they figure out how much of a fraud you are.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked to show you were never a fascist, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a disgusting neoplatonist is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably not fascist.
This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.
@clora