@LukeAlmighty I mean to be honest I've felt like this since the last year of high school which was probably almost 6 years ago. And it only got extremely bad in my final year or two of college.

But after graduating I haven't found a job yet so I've been trying to do freelance work by video editing in my free time while I'm still job searching but I just feel constantly stressed.

I even tried having an entire week where I wouldn't do anything at all and I still felt extremely stressed on an unbelievable scale I have no idea why. I think It's because I have a strong want for a life I'm paranoid I'll never achieve.

All I want Is a partner & maybe a kid even if it's adopted.
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I should also add the only time I don't feel stressed. Is when I'm talking to someone, especially my friend. She also feels stressed and unloved all the time like me & we kinda...

Give each other what we want but we're both paranoid the others going to leave. we've told each other just as much. But she's still preparing herself the fact that I'm going to leave and abandon her & I'm doing the same because I feel like she's going to get bored of me as a friend and leave me or move on when I'm still here.

I know it's unhinged but we both feel like we will fall apart / give up entirely if we do...

emotions are hard

@Mr_NutterButter
Sorry, I've never been there yet.

@LukeAlmighty it's all right I was able to figure out a way to relax and I think I've got an under control but thank you for being concerned.