Guys I'm really depressed and I'm ready to make a life change. If this unhappiness is a strange land, then I am ready to "go home" back to happiness, back to the way things used to be. I can't keep being paralyzed with fear.
https://youtu.be/yfXoNKgc5c4
@TURBORETARD9000 *hugg*
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLpoYz7tii_gj5EA1RV99A9ZOR4OD5W0LS&si=rl1b0boWCiS_SvlB
Guys can we hug each other?
@cummies Yup, free to get arrested for falling asleep in a public area, so free, need money to sleep, literally, lol
@zombiefemboy Finished his story...he ended up getting captured, likely tortured, he died from firing squad, his wife died of cervical cancer, (wouldn't be surprised if it was the result of torture) and she begged the us to help her since she was the wife of their self admitted "billion dollar agent" (he saved them countless dollars by notifying them an electronics system for a plane would be ineffective)...anyway, they ignored her.
https://youtu.be/9UG8Ulwgc9E
Watching this and lold at the first 30 seconds this guy was a simp and he sold out the countey for money so he could keep simping for his eras equivalent of a quirky egirl
@zombiefemboy The guy they're talking about now seems afraid for his family, like he's doing this for them, he had to convince the cia to give him a cyanide pill because he didn't want to be interrogated if captured. He wanted to get his family out, and that was the plan, but his family later refused, they wanted to stay, all his efforts were for nothing.
Falling down an espionage rabbithole on youtube. I learned a lot about mk ultra and other bad stuff as a teen but I never really cared much for the stories of individual agents. But I thought about it before going on this kick and they're really the cogs, without them none of the nefarious ideas get carried out. I wanted to know what kind of people these were, were they amoral psychopathic monsters, or were they simple people doing a small job they believed in? Or were they just afraid, and trying to survive?
About AI and bear with my pretentiousness for a minute:
creating art is a borderline religious experience for me, often when i'm drawing it's like i disappear, like i'm in the right place at the right time, you might think its kind of ridiculous considering my goofy lewd drawings (i create other stuff that i'm not sharing ok lol) , but i feel like i'm in tune with my own nature,
drawing for me is more than creating an image.
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The Trench