YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I've decided to stop living in fear, if there are out zoos making art on patreon and open maps who have appeared in media with their pictures and shit and they were never murdered or had their houses burned down...then why am I so worried? I'm not going to become out but I am going to stop worrying so much for my own mental health.

*child is used euphemistically he's a grown ass man 10 years older than me

My drag queen ex hasn't been booking any shows lately and that makes me really happy, all the local spots have been having all acts and djs with no connection to him, I wonder if something happened, wonder if the rest of the world finally found out what a piece of shit asshole child he is.

The brutality
of WITH WHICH
These bones were cracked
Smacks of innocence
Corrupted in the womb of the tomb of the great Pharo ramses
Plots of dust so holy
and wholly incapable of supporting life
That we wonder
We ponder
What could have done this

Nini frens

I'm scared I'm going to end up with some normie space girl or guy who won't like me because I'm weird

Ok psychic gf just contacted me, she's frantic, apologizing for not checking up on me sooner etc., I've got a bit of a thousand yard stare going and some manic eyes but I calmly and appreciatively thank her, I try my best to diminish her concerns, "Dude, you've been out of it for days, look at you, ugh no wonder the people at the damn store were freaked out you're running on fumes. When's the last time you slept? You! Hey! When did you sleep?" All I can muster is a genuinely apologetic "Idk". She takes a deep sigh, wraps herself around me, and in that moment, that hug, I remember where and who I am, I say "I'm sorry babe, I didn't mean to freak you out", her response is one of endless compassion and love, she says to me "You have nothing to apologize for, I love you, bumps and all, I know you doubt deep, and dark, but I'm here to tell you, you might not believe it, but you've got heart Jazzy, and you're gonna be worth something some day, and they might not see it but I do, and I will never leave you Jazzy do you hear me? I will never abandon you like the others. I am here for you." Her words bring me down, to the ground, so I can see her face, I pray she is right and that things will work out.

"Jazzy you need to go to bed, you've been up nearly 24 hours babe, I know, I know, but it's time for bed. Ok?"

ok Psychic GF....thankyou for helping me

Psychicgf: You can call me by my name you know, Poynt, my name is Poynt.

I...I love you Poynt... I'm scared....

<I'm right here with you baby, you don't have to be scared for now, I'm with you, I know scary things are hard to let go of, but once you so let go of it, it's gone babe, just like that, and life is like it is in these moments, where I feel fulfilled, by being with you, and I know you feel the same for me.

Thankyou Poynt, thankyou *hugs Poynt deeply and more fully than he thought possible.*

She would still be good in bed with me because she would understand sex theory

I wish I could have a gf who carried herself like an experienced whore but who never actually had sex with anyone

I would like to aquire a space to host parties in irl... that's a goal

@driftwood @bless @amerika thoughts?

Do you guys ever contemplate what it would be like to have the powers of God? If I was given ultimate power, it's funny, because if I was given that I'd just manifest me some people who loved me and I'd ignore the rest of the world, and here I was thinking I would wipe everything out, but no, that rage only comes from loneliness, and if I had ultimate power why destroy anything when I could just make myself happy and leave the trash to rot while I enjoyed myself, and yes I call it all trash, why? Because it cares not for me, it does not serve me, I am insignificant to it, my feelings are unimportant to it, and so yes I think of it as trash while I lay dying, the flowers beauty is only beautiful for those who have the good mood to enjoy them, for the rest, they appear a mockery, dancing in idle ignorance of the suffering around them.

I need to find a new perspective I guess