YZZAJ @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club

I wish so badly I could show you guys my makeup and you could give me makeup tips and we could have makeup streams where we mostly said nothing and fiddled with some shit and then did makeup

Ok even though I'm sure other people would make fun of me *I* looked in the mirror and felt fantastic seeing what looked more like a girl looking back. I even started smiling and giggling like I haven't in a long time. I need to get away from my family. I can't be myself around them. But I have nowhere to go. I just have to get really good at grey rocking and maintaining boundaries.

I did my makeup for the first time in like 3 years and I did a horrible job idk how to even do it nobody taught me and youtube videos are hard to follow along with, I'm sure I look like a disgusting freak who everyone hates because I went down the tranny alt right pipeline and now I have self hating feelings when I didn't before because I internalized the group dynamics bullshit and so if you're an alt right tranny GET AWAY FROM THOSE PEOPLE THEY ONLY PRETEND TO BE YOUR FRIEND THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIEND IF THEY CALL YOU NAMES AND VICTIMIZE YOU!! but anyway I understand why nobody would like me I'm a freak who was too stupid to stay where it belonged and now I have noone irl who is a friend. I am so isolated and scared irl. Oh and I could only do my makeup because my family is gone who swears they aren't transphobic but they fucking are, they say little shit to me because they think I'm not trans about how kids are being tricked into being trans and shit and it makes me fucking sick to have to pretend and just be like "Well who knows, people decide what they decide, you know?" and they snap back with shit like "NO, they're being MANIPULATED!" and this is a fucking person who has power over "vulnerable" kids and gives them life advice and shit and it makes me sick to wonder what kind of values they could be giving these kids.

I just took some anti anxiety meds because I can't stop crying and being scared that everyone on fedi is fake and playing a trick on me.

I have cried twice already today.

I'm on the verge of tears I hope that makes your day better if you hate me.

To anyone who's real I'm sorry for doubting you but to all the fakers I hope you burn in hell you pieces of fake shit, suck it.

People be acting mad suspicious, until further notice I am considering all of you antis

Should I block .minds? A lot of bot accounts from there following me starting a few days ago.

Guys how do I become as popular and have as much fun on normie accounts? I want to have fun but I just cant do it if I can't occasionally talk about things that piss everybody off, and those sites don't adhere to the rules of the internet that say if you get mad you should cry about it because there's nothing else you can do (according to the rules).

Popular twink: Heyyyy oomfies what's your favorite thing???
You: It's (thing you like)
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